Kissa lift ka

Here comes another post on swype. Today, was a day, with me getting stuck in a lift for the first time ever in my life. That too packed with just guya …  Its another matter there was no place to even wiggle around.

Usually all corporate offices are the ones those are swankily furnished. But unfortunately ours looks ok, but the maintainence by the builders is pretty bad(many times one our the other lift is shutdown). There is only 2 lifts to the basement (other 4 are to thw ground floor) where I usually park. One is the regular, another is the dirty service lift. Most often, I end up taking the service lift… Today I was already late, and lazy too. Something told me to take the service lift, but because the other one came first, tho it was full, I stepped in ( I might be the cause of the stuck lift too, as it might have got overloaded, sign to lose weight… Sigh!).  The lift goes all the way down..n below basement and gets stuck. The door is jammed, the emergency call phone in the lift doesn’t work!  Because we are in a lift and in the basement cellphone signal was not working..  Felt a little like the miners stuck in the mine pit in chile!  Just when we thought it couldnt get better, we found the alarm button.
And kept pressing them.

No…my life didnt flash before my eyes ( no scare of falling cause we were already in basement)…cause the guys thought the whole scene was funny…and kept cracking jokes about, how the security guys might be using iron rods, and one of them hit them if close to the door.. Requesting the security guys to take us our atleast before dinner…first 15 mins of getting stuck, no one was in sight.. Guys kept peeping through the slight opening.. After that everyone started using their cell phone.. And got through… Phew.. After 25 mins of  struggling..the door was forced open, and we climbed out!

Lesson for me, listen to your hearts prompting…use the stairs at least to get down.. Don’t use service lift ( better to be stuck in a lift full of funny guys than being alone and scared)…lose weight, if you are thin enough you can probably squeeze through tinyest of opening.

Hasta la vista

Its been pretty crazy, lots of work and early morning calls..still settling down. But I realised, I can still make time to write; but why am I not writing.. I dont know. I will be back soon!

Got my post back

It’s pretty late to be getting android app and posting; not sure if I can get the words right, but what the heck , iam gonna try anyways

I can see since last sept, I haven’t posted anything.. But life has moved at a fast pace and things have changed..too…work front has been very good. An unexpected promotion out of the blue.. When I was least expecting.. That was fantastic..good appraisal..there is hope for more I heard too.. So its time to prove myself again.. But now to an australian boss..i don’t have much expectations from him but iam going to do my best as always..i have renewed enthusiasm about this new role… Lets see how this goes! I don’t know what law of universe..is this..just when you stop looking for a job is when you get fab offers.. That too from good companies..where were they when you were actually searching for one?!!.. No harm in keeping the options open .. 2012  is looking up  !

Lost swipe

I just swiped a entire post on my android phone.. and everything disappears.. At the slightest touch..I’m irritated..! time to sleep

Find your passion

Couldn’t help post this.. blog; made me think..courtesy.. her

but marking it to come back and read later .. my braincells are screaming for sleep now

Crazy Life

Its been a whirlwind of events at work and home lately..

I am really excited with the arrival of my baby niece last saturday.. Throughout my sisters pregnancy.. everyone kept telling its gonna be a boy..and I almost believed it..Now I know its all crap.  But I am pretty happy with another girl in the house.. I know how wonderful the relationship is between sisters.. though they might be at each other throats ..but its still great.. She is pretty lovely..quite a bonny baby..but long legs and hands with dimples like her mother.. I am sure..she’s gonna turn out to be one knocker! .. Though the elder one is pretty excited..she sometimes feels the attention diverted from her and wants to be the second one.. I hope she gets over it soon. Now sis is back home..but at her place..with mum staying over at her.. So its just dad and me at home.. most often.  \

Gym has gone for a toss with running around to the hospital initially and then trying to pack lunch for work.. 2 weeks is a long time..soon its gonna be 3 weeks.. with work taking over mylife..  I am determined to get back to running or the aerobic videos I have got now. With 2 that I purchased from Amazon which is on the way… Hope to get a variety of workout.. with this.. Almost in a mind to quit gym and just try on my own.. the only worry is that I might not be consistent (If  I don’t have a place to get to .. like gym). Hoping everything will work out and fall in place..

Works gone crazy lately..like they say..when it rains.. it just pours.. I hope to get out of this situation by October.. but then again you’ll never know. But there is a positive side to it as well..considering my appraisal is closeby.. all the busyness should get converted into some money.. .. But with the way things are changing in our organization with hiving off.. closing one business.. the top guy getting ousted.. the appraisal also seems quite grim.. I better push away this negative thinking and focus on all the good things in life.. Here today..gone tomorrow.

Thinking of trying my hand at cooking..too..but for that I need to get back home first..Crossing my fingers and hoping this would be learning phase for me.. with mom not around to pamper me..I quite like the silence at home with no squabbling happening. But I miss the babies around too.. (what an oxymoron!)..

With all the boring things happening.. some interesting stuff happening too..

- got in touch with an old colleague quite randomly and meeting for lunch

- crossed path with an old friend  on my way home..promised to catch up.. (but since then work took over)

- Sees a firang in a narrow lane driving in the morning.. we both are driving  in opposite directions.. its somehow the same time everyday.. I think he can spot me anywhere else if he sees me.. .. Wonder whats happening in his life.. quite a weird thought..

- travel on my mind.. this time.. I will do and then talk about it .. no point in just rambling everytime.

Dwelling…

Finally here is the break that I was looking for.. I am not sure what I am doing with this.. though there is a long list of things that were on the plans.. I hope to make it happen. I seem to have got side-tracked a bit on day 1. Everytime I talk about something seems like it never happens.. so this times lets see how this goes.

I realised I need space and that doesn’t happen at home. Everything I have to do needs to be explained. My resolve on certain things .. seem to be taking shape.

I think too much of doing anything.. that seems to be a big problem. It would be just good to decide and go ahead. I feel the need to dissect every little thing.. whether its about me or anyone and run it over and over in my head.. many times its just takes a worse turn.. Hopefully this time around .. i can actually decide and execute it?

A single traveller?

So finally it is settled, I have found a tenant and have handed over my ‘lovely’ apartment to the young couple .. *sniff*sniff* but I had made up my mind and this is the result of that.   Its been long since i have written anything at all, but I do miss writing.  Another reason being.. work, and almost every weekend I have been out.  So I have decided to take a break from it and just stay at home today.  Now I can no more threaten to move out! .. but my parents are  better perceptive now..

Since yesterday, I have been upset, a  friend who wanted to take a break  (she kept pining that she hasn’t taken a break for last 2 years, so I said lets go), then she offered to arrange everything.  As I had already planned leaves, (but I was planning on taking a holiday by myself  a short one to test the waters, which I had already begun enquiring), so I was fine with this idea and she went on to make all the arrangements herself (or so she said), when I did ask on when do I book the tickets she kept delaying for a reason or another (in the meanwhile i had dropped all the other plans and was waiting for her to come back) at one point I even said that lets call off.. if she is not getting any hotel confirmation, but she said, no no.. lets do this.  Now when I had got all my hopes up and looking forward for a nice holiday.. she comes back and says that this is working out to be more expensive (all of a sudden).. I am so annoyed.. I can’t believe I have been led on.. (She’s been dating someone and having issues there.. I strongly think finally that worked out)..I do not have problems with she going off with her BF,  its just that I feel very upset, when I do not have any time left on hand to plan anything.. I post pone my holiday from the week of Aug 15th to the 31st..  I am still sooooo pissed.. right now that she kept on stringing me on.. . I don’t know why I keep believing people .. when my instinct says otherwise ( she did not want to take on the holiday by herself, cause it would work out to be more expensive than sharing)!  I seems like one whiney kid now.. but I get to be this once in a way right?

Looking postively,  this has made resolution much stronger to depend on myself and God of course than on friends.  Nothing like your own family, but they do get on your nerves and you would want getaway from everyone once in a way…  I guess this is a push to take the plunge.. take my personal life seriously.. give it more time!

Considering I have always lived a very sheltered life, its hard for me not to be around people wherever I go.. Its time now to take that bold step and be comfortable by being me.. While I was looking at travel options.. here is something I came across.. Lovely tips.. I love it! http://solofemaletravel.net/2011/02/being-single-woman-valentines-day/

So I have to take one step at a time.. a date with myself.. a coffee.. a movie.. a dinner.. ! and then a holiday.. (oh! Lord, I am looking to have you for company ) .. but I guess i need to get this done soon.. if I have to plan a holiday anytime soon.

Lost battle

I tried to reason with my parents for almost a month and lost the battle.  There were some really emotional dialogue on how they will hit the grave early if I left them to be alone.. and the like.. I knew if I go ahead with it, every turn someone is unwell I will beat myself up with more guilt than I can take.. I will not be able to live peacefully. So I have decided to let it out for rent.  Now is not my time.  Everyone’s behaviour has changed for the better since then my parents don’t squabble much anymore, niether are they sitting on my head for some of the stuff.. they are giving me space I need (for now! )   But the sad part is, a really nicely done new apartment will be used by someone else. ..sigh!  But i think for now I am in peace about this whole decision.

Before all hell breaks loose

I am going to tell my parents that I will move out and start living in my apartment(which is around 3 kms from my parent’s place)! Yes, finally I have made my decision, but God knows if I will be successful in actually executing it.  I shouldn’t be giving too much of time between my announcing and actually moving..

I need to do this for everyone’s sake and my sake too.. I have been feeling ..that I have been living someone else’s live .. forgotten who I am ..where do I fit in? I am a faithful and caring daughter for both my parents… mediator of their arguments.. chaufferer for my sister and her needs (which is not often.. but there is a likelyhood of it increasing with the arrival of the second baby).. and a pampering aunt for my niece ..and the like ..you get the drift..Where am I?  I don’t mind being there for everyone, almost all the time.. but sometimes I feel like I don’t have time to do what ‘I’ want to do ..cause someone’s need is bigger and I am available.. (being wanted is not so bad..cause you always have something to do, right?)And over a period of time i am beginning to resent that.. no one knows how I feel and I am sure they wouldn’t understand where I am coming from.. Probably i might realise that this whole wanting my space is a big nonsense too.. and I had made this up all in my mind.. But I wouldn’t know until  I am there right? Moving out and still being closer would mean I get my space and still be around for them..But it would also mean that I would loose out on a rent and a handsome deposit which could help pay off my housing loan earlier.. But then again.. we cannot weight all things on a materialistic scale. 

I had taken 3 days off, which was on random, but now it might seem to my parents like it was planned.. I have gone over this in my mind multiple times.. whether it is right or wrong.. whether they will think I am abandoning them.. whether I am a bad daughter by wanting to have my space..blah blah.. and so many more.. I have lost count on the reasons .. of guilt that I am tormented with .. which i am sure to not get rid of so easily.. I am sure this will come back and haunt me again..I have been praying about my decision..so far haven’t felt that I need to go back on it.  So, i will have to break the news just before I run off to work again on Monday.. Its not that I haven’t tried telling this to them before..but they have never taken me seriously..so this time rather than ‘asking’ , I am gonna be ‘telling’ them, I just hope and pray that they make this easier for me.   Also the bigger problem being that I actually ‘give in’ again.. another big scare …God, please let them not fall ill.  Composing my opening statement..before all the hell breaks loose..